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[24 Mar 2005|02:59pm]


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[22 Mar 2005|01:54pm]
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[16 Mar 2005|03:04pm]
I forgot to mention I cut my hair. These pictures are just to show you my hair so don't expect them to be pretty. I was getting ready for bed.

The only boy who could ever reach me was the son of a preacher man.Collapse )
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[12 Mar 2005|06:37pm]
My 18th birthday is tomorrow.
Aren't you just sooooo excited? I bet.
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[06 Mar 2005|09:45pm]
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[04 Mar 2005|06:35pm]
From my disposable camera+today out in the backyard. Sophie was also playing with the neighbor's chihuahua but my camera battery died before I could take pictures.

Audrey and SophieCollapse )
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[02 Mar 2005|01:09am]
Sophie came home with me today. She doesn't seem afraid at all. She ran around with the baby ferret who is a little smaller than her. She seemed to really enjoy playing with him. She responds to her name because the breeders have been using it for the past couple weeks. She keeps licking our faces (and the cats, who appreciate it less) and showing off her stinky puppy breath. Shes also been following us around and barking. Shes bossy and I adore her already. I took a lot of pictures with my disposable camera, but I just snapped these real quick with the digital.

SophieCollapse )
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[28 Feb 2005|02:15pm]
Well, we were supposed to go to the fair on Friday but apparently we're now going this weekend instead.
Saturday nothing. We went to see the puppies that day I think. Madame (the pit bull) is wonderful. She is such a sweet dog. I don't really like the shar pei, she is kind of touchy. That doesn't say anything about her puppies though, because Smoochy is the friendliest dog I've ever met. I don't think shes feeding her puppies enough. My favorites are two of Madame's puppies. I took pictures but I'm too lazy for posting.

Saturday was amazing. ♥

We wanted to go to the beach Sunday (Pale really isn't my color) but it was raining. Ugh. So we went to the mall.

Yesterday made me kind of sad. ♥

Today I was supposed to audition for the Lehigh Idol thing but I realized that if I did it I'd only feel uncomfortable. I'm not really ready for any sort of competition and I'd like to wait a year on that.

Tomorrow we pick up Sophie (: Expect pictures.

Tomorrow Marc moves out ):
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[25 Feb 2005|03:51pm]

I can't fucking stand this bullshit anymore. I don't care if I have to live in a cramped fucking room and sleep cuddled up next to aimee with audrey on the other side of me and the cats living in a cat cage. It will be better than this because I can't fucking take it anymore.
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You're so vain. [23 Feb 2005|04:17pm]

Fucking up your friends list one oversized photo at a time,

You probably think this song is about you, don't you?Collapse )
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[21 Feb 2005|11:47pm]

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

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[20 Feb 2005|03:52pm]
For those interested in the puppies. Not that you can tell what they will look like since supposedly they're mixed with husky, I took pictures of the moms anyway.. and of smoochy!

Plus a couple of the cats and one of me and marcCollapse )
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[19 Feb 2005|02:31am]
Went over to Marc's mom's house tonight to meet some of his family from his dad's side. They just moved here from Ohio and are staying with them for a couple weeks until they can find a house. I didn't want to go over there really because there are so many of them and I don't like being around a lot of people. However, Marc called on his way home from work to inform me that they had brought along their three dogs. One of which had just given birth three days ago, another pregnant. This has apparently happened many times before, but Marc explains that they're from the country so they just let their dogs wander free all the time. Yeah well, then get them fixed. I'm freezing right now and I'm in a house, mom #1 is on the front porch with her puppies (which is only screened in) and Mom #2 in the back of their large vehicle with the windows slightly rolled down. Shes due to give birth at any moment and I doubt they're even checking on her. I feel like a vet or something, like I should be over there trying to deliver puppies. I guess I've somewhat realized what I'll probably end up doing with my life. I don't think I could ever put an animal down, so how could I get around that? Anyway, Mom #1 is a Chinese Shar Pei. They believe the father was a husky. Mom #2 is a pitt bull. Marc might take one of them for him, which might be good because I plan on being very selfish with my pomeranian once I get her. I know he can't take one of the pitts if they end up looking a lot like a pitt, because then no one really will ever rent to us. I kind of feel like pitt bulls are the black people of the dog universe. It really all depends on how they are brought up. Anyone looking for a free puppy? I want them to go to good homes and I'll never let them be sent to the humane society. I'll be sure to have pictures once they're older and the moms no longer threaten to bite anyone who goes near them. I'm curious to see what these puppies will look like, if they really are both mixed with husky.
Also, they want to breed one of Mom #1s dogs (She is probably near a year old, the other dog they have) with Marc's mom's dog Race (chow/lab). Not like there aren't already enough puppies running around in the world. I love that dog though, she is a chinese shar pei/golden retriever. Shes beautiful and when I sat on the floor she laid on me.

Marc fell asleep and I'm cold and bored. I can't wait until I'm done with school, so I can get paid for having to be somewhere all day. Preferably being a secretary at a vet's office if I can find the work.
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[16 Feb 2005|02:47pm]
I'm really bored right now. Tonight my life consists of nothing but the tv. American Idol and the Simple Life. Anyone else watch these shows? Maybe its just me. I really want to see who makes it on AI tonight. I want Constantine to make it, also that sixteen/seventeen year old girl with the nose piercing. The one with the dark hair who told Simon he'd have to take her to her prom if he sent her home.

Vonzell or however you spell it is from Fort Myers. Shes a mail lady. Who would of thought someone from our small ass area would be on American Idol. Does anyone know her?

Plus I love the Simple Life. They're so amusing. I told Marc recently that Nicole is probably really good in bed. What? I bet she is. She should of had an old sex tape leak, but that is just my opinion.

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[16 Feb 2005|01:41pm]
If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?

(Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be)
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Would you fuck me? Cause I'd fuck me. [15 Feb 2005|11:50pm]
I usually update more often, but there hasn't been much to say. I graduate in about a month. I have four online classes to complete at school before then, two of which are basically almost complete. Both of my FLVS classes are basically finished with. I also turn 18 in about a month. This wont change much of anything. Marc moves out at the end of this month, along with Audrey and the ferrets. I'm not too upset or lonely when thinking about it, because two weeks after that I will be 18 and graduated and I'm sure we wont spend many nights apart. I feel like biting something really hard, hes such a loser. Since he is taking Audrey, Sophie is the new addition to my life. Shes with her breeder still, but I'm sure you know you can expect pictures once she comes home with me on March the 1st. People make me feel like I should be ashamed or embarassed when I say I'm getting or have gotten another animal. Which is entirely ridiculous. I will always have a lot of animals, I'm sure I will end up with a career relating to animals. I love learning about different animals and researching their personalities. Yet, I am sure they wont think less of all the teenagers around here popping out kids. Fuck babies.
Somehow I've been talked into auditioning for the spring festivel idol thing, the thought of which makes me want to vomit. I hate the stage. I love to sing. Never did I think I could have a career pertaining to it because I hate the stage. I don't care what anyone thinks, I just hate people staring at me. Its a pet peeve. Besides, my voice could be good but is in no way trained. Regardless of whether or not I have potential, potential doesn't mean I need to be attempting to enter a competition with people who probably love the stage and put on a better show.
I think I'll stick with singing in my car and stay home that night to take another Victoria's Secret vanilla scented bubble bath. Not that I'm allowed.
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[06 Feb 2005|10:45pm]
Here is what is going to happen.

Marc is going to move in with his parents until sometime this summer when we will have saved enough money with which to move out. He is taking Audrey (our siberian husky for the uninformed) and the three older ferrets with him. Left with me will be the baby ferret and the three cats. He is taking with him the animals that grandmother bitches about which will make my life easier. Audrey will be happier here (we're at his mom's right now) because they have a large fenced in backyard and she will have their dog to play with. I'm sure I will be here a lot, or he will be over there a lot. This way neither of us will be paying rent and more money can be saved. Less bitching and insaneness can occur. The only problem is that I am in no way used to sleeping alone anymore. Being without Marc mainly and the dog as well will be odd at night. Therefore, I am getting myself a small watch dog. Partly my graduation present, partly saved money. This is within the next month, and within the next month is when he will be moving out. I've always wanted a Pomeranian. Here are a couple pictures of people's dogs from the LJ community.


So I'm going to be looking at the classifieds.

I just can't wait until next month when I graduate, turn eighteen so I can work anywhere and make my own decisions, and then eventually hopefully find a good place to live.

Then figure out what to do with my life, career wise.
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[03 Feb 2005|02:49pm]
I'm so sick of living here. The past six months (the time since I've been back from Miami) have been a mediocre rollercoaster ride of feeling mostly blah, mostly unhappy and occasionally content. When I lived in Miami with my mother, we got into maybe three arguments the whole time I was there. All of which were small. I woke up in the morning, did some school work, watched some tv, ate some lunch, tanned by the pool, cleaned my little room, did my laundry and lived a quiet life free of drama. Why is everyone here so dramatic? Why am I stuck in this black hole that seems to be sucking me further in every day that goes by? All grandmother does is bitch about things on a daily basis, thats all shes ever done. When I was in Miami, I didn't have my mother screaming things at me about "the way I am." because I'm sure she realized that after everything this "family" dealt with as I was growing up she didn't know me at all. Grandmother just started screaming at me about how she paid so much money for the carpet in the room and Marc and I destroyed it. Basically we've lived in there and the carpet got used. We're crammed into a tiny space. She started screaming about everything else she could think of, then proceeded into the "pity me" stage of her screaming. This is where she talks about all the things she does for me and everyone else and all she gets is shit in return. Woe is me. Woe is me. She said she will tell grandfather how Marc hasn't been paying her a lot of rent and then he will have to leave. I like how she expects for Marc to pay for everything for me even though I'm still a minor and then expects him to fork over three hundred dollars a month for living in half of one of her rooms. The same thing she said Kori's mom was fucked up for doing. I asked her why she was going to charge him that much? "Because you're going to be living here and I'm going to need it." Oh, right. Way to take legal responsibility for me by mooching money off an 18 year old you know will do it because he loves me. It's a good thing school is ending for me and I have time to work good hours while still leaving free time for me. Where are we supposed to go? Just pack up all ten of us and leave? Marc's mom's house with the ferrets, cats and the dog? Plus that annoying fucker Aimee (Last night she fought with us because we were on the computer and didn't want her hovering over us "Its my house, I can stand wherever I want!" I swear she never grew passed the age of five). The ferrets and dog aren't such a problem. Audrey would love it there with Race, huge backyard she'd be content in all day long. The ferrets stay in a cage so it's not like that is much of an issue. It's just the cats, they have a particularly evil cat who hates everyone so there would be no way to bring them along. But then who would keep them until we got our own place? I don't trust people. We won't have enough money saved up to move out until May. I just don't know what to fucking do. Marc's parents know what we deal with here, with sperm fuck donor and his psychotic tendencies. They wanted us to come live there. But where? Dave is too busy inviting everyone else and their whole family to live there to be able to make room for us. Then, If I don't make nice with my grandmother she will tell my mom that I am not living with them anymore and Rob will have a fit. Not that I won't be 18 and done with school within a month and a 1/2 anyway. @*#@##########*&#@*&#&@#&4738743874 djdjsjdhuhsfduhfdfhusdhiofsdfhdfh
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